If you've made it here, then you are grieving and ready to make some changes.
I want you to know that there is hope. You won't always feel like this. Yes, there is a process that you can't avoid, and how long that takes is unique to each person, but you can get through this. You can embrace life again and find meaning in life again. Healing is possible. Grief changes. It's not always going to be this painful.